Thursday, February 11, 2010

boys...boyz...and boooyyys!

OK last night after my post on here..I started sewing a few things...I went to my fabric closet and heard some commotion from Bryce's room.....I let the kids read at night before bed..they each have a light next to their beds. I opened the door and there is Carl, Cole and Bryce oogling over the sports illustrated??? I said .." Hey, that is not productive reading guys!" Bryce's response "Mom I am reading the captions." I said "Guys, I did not just fall off the turnip truck...I know what is going on..SHEESH!" Cole and Carl started cracking up..Bryce got red faced and embarrassed....sure he is reading the articles...WHATEVER!
I closed the door to hear a fit of laughter on the other side...I think I may need therapy soon...anyone want to donate to the fund?
So our house is centrally located for all of BRyces's friends..they all come here in the morning to walk him to school....what was the subject of conversation as soon as all the teenagers were here?: Sports illustrated. Suddenly I feel like the perverted house on the block and that I should call all their Mom's to warn them...but I am to embarassed. Carl informed me that the cover is the worst picture (the girl's swim suit barely covers anything) and that that is his favorite one.....He is his father's child is all I can say about that. *shock*

This to shall pass is all I chant on the inside of my head!

Well moving on to bigger and better things..work went well today ..left with a handful of beautiful fabrics....I will have a new apron soon! Studying my bible everyday .....I feel good about all of that!

Today was the valentine's dance at middle school so 5 of Bryce's friends came here for cologne and rides to the dance...The cologne cloud has lingered still....I think I shoudl warn anyone with asthma to avoid my block.....Bryce was worried he was going to run out of cologne ..he wanted me to buy him a new bottle at wal-mart tonight...I bought him one for Christmas...the boys were dousing themselves before they left...and some of them had already put some on before they got here? Then when I was running a few minutes behind...Bryce told me I needed to hurry or all the good girls would be taken? I asked " what does that mean?" They would all be taken by other guys....Well last time I checked girls were only taken when they wanted to be taken.....isn't it weird to say that? Usually it is hurray or all the good tables will be taken? or seats...apparently at a junior high dance all the good girls would be taken! I learn something new everyday!

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

changes.....why is this so hard for a mom?

OK today has opened my eyes?? Are you ready for this?
Prepubecent boys...is anyone ready for this? Especially a MOM?

Today I noticed in the mail Bryce got his latest edition of Sports Illustrated...he was selling magazines for school and his Grandma ordered it for him .....apparently there was a box you could check if you didn't want the swim suit edition..but it was very small and Bryce didn't know if he had gotten that version or not?
It came today...he got the swim suit edition.
He immediatly saw it and took it to his room and started flipping through the pages...this is all you could hear from the next room ..where I happened to be... "HELLLOOOOO"...." oh and helllooooooo". All of the boys eventually migrated to that room. I am in big trouble.

Preston had his presentation today. He neglected to tell us that apparently the girl he has had a crush on for two years is also part of his "highly capable" group at school...she was presenting Pluto...Preston was presenting mercury. I took a picture of her she is really cute. Preston was red faced emabarrassed ..I think he was hoping none of us would notice her name "Melanie"...he has only been talking about her for 2 years. She is a very tall hispanic girl...soooo CUTE!

Can you imagine having four boys sitting next to you when the presenter for "uranus" came up?? YES! I say 4 because ROb about died after he heard the boys laughing their heads off.....then when the presenters were talking about the explorer's of uranus...it only got worse from there.....I wanted to die.

I thought girl puberty was bad.....I think these boys are going to be the death of me.

The evening was topped off with a dare for Carl to go into the girls bathroom...and he did it..Why is this so funny.....there wasn't anyone in there?....I don't know that PReston will ever want us to go and support him again?? I can't say that I want to sit with my own family again...except I heard Preston's Best friends little brother announce to everyone that his mom farts in the bathtub! I felt sorry for her.....out of the mouth of babes!

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Clarissa on the long arm.



I was in training for most of the day today learning how to use our new computer system that is hooked to the long arm machine at work. So a rep from the company had come to teach us and while on break I realized there was no one to get Clarissa from school so I went up to the school....Preston is on the Math team and just to brag about him he is also in the "highly capable student" group at school which means that he is really advanced for his age...he is basically working at a seventh grade level in alot of subjects..in math right now he and Bryce are studying the same things...(the oldest and youngest boy)Anyway..because Preston stays later at school Clarissa is not supposed to walk home from school alone and Cole forgot to go get her....anyway...she ended up walking home by herself...scared me to death...cause I couldn't find her and while taking the route she walks home I called the house and she answered the phone...." HI Mom"
I was relieved that she was home safe...but also wondering what happened on the way home..she said that the neighbor that walks by our house alot stopped to say hi to her...so we had the stranger danger talk and I happen to know that guy....so I was not worried about him but we have another neighbor I wouldn't want any where near close to her...and I mentioned that to her she said " yeah, I know Mom, I remember you told the boys not to go there to sell candy last time" THank YOu JEsus! I have a child that actually listens and remembers things! That was over a year ago and CLarissa trusts me enough to know to listen to me.....there is one other girl in this house that never listens to me.
Anyway, I took CLarissa to work with me and started working on the quilt machine...then I heard one going in the next room....Brianna was teaching Clarissa how to use the long arm...I am so impressed with her little designs she was doing hearts and stars and getting the feel for the machine.

The Human Flaw

Yesterday I had a counseling session..hadn't had one in quite some time because the kids come first...and my hectic school schedule doesn't allow me to take alot of time for myself...so going into counseling yesterday was such a breath of fresh air..I was GIDDY! Yes, Giddy! Not all people feel that way about counseling or the dentist...but I always do...weird.

Yesterday the topic of discussion was what I thought is a "CHARISMA FLAW"...why do I need to OWN everything I have no idea..moving along...DO you know what that flaw is?? I will tell you.

You know that feeling that you are inadequate?...that you are never good enough ..that you will never measure up? I feel I can share this freely because something clicked yesterday...no matter how old I get..no matter what I do in my life..I will always feel this way about SOMETHING in my life...why? Because I will never be perfect and I will never measure up or be good enough that is a HUMAN flaw..not a Charisma Flaw. Does anyone ever think they are good enough for things? NO! We all have doubts and fears and even though I have been through new things 100's of times I get that nausea...and that tape reeling in my head that says: "you are not good enough" ....it is what you do with that that makes all the difference. I could be a victim that says: "you are right...you might as well give up, you aren't good enough"...or I could say: "OK well I am going to try anyway and if I fail that is better than never having tried at all"....I would hate myself much more for not trying...and probably the odds are going to be in my favor that I will succeed because usually when I set my mind to something within reason, I can accomplish it. It is all about perspective...I keep learning that and there is so much truth about that....teh older I get the more I believe this.
I love it when I can relate to everyone and not feel alone in something. Don't you?

We are all brothers and sisters and we all share so many things and I love that God created us that way.....there is no BIG secret here.....it is so simple...we just make it harder than it truly is...how sad is that?

I also discovered some more AWESOME things about myself...things are just clicking for me and I love that! I called my Feminism instructor and told her about my new plan of action and she was so excited and told me about how this isn't just schooling it is a journey..I believe her whole heartedly and I would rather be on a journey anytime...rather than hitting my head against a brick wall..to end up in a place I don't actually care about....Life is beautiful!