AUgust 1st

I Can't believe August is here already, this is amazing to me --I feel like time is going by so fast and I haven't accomplished much at all. I am going to be 30 in 10 days and I don't feel a day over 65--Strange! I know some people get stressed over their 30th birthday but I think 30 is the new 20 , like pink is the new black! So , I am actually looking forward to being 30 , b/c I know I am one step closer to being old and wise--hahahahah! Anyway--we had a new family come and look at the house today--I hope we get an offer--I am living on pins and needles everytime someone comes to see the house. I feel like a single mom --and the kids are just getting worse and worse the longer Rob is gone and JEri the oldest ,who I expect to try and help me some( IDK why I ever expect her to help me) has been getting into more trouble. I have a cell phone for the kids to use , for when they have sleepovers or go somewhere without a parent and to use when I am not home, well JEri seems to think this is her phone not a community phone so she has programmed all of her #'s and addresses in the phone and she tries to talk as much as possible, anywho--she is not supposed to use the phone when a parent is not around--so I looked up phone record she has been using phone--she got grounded from phone--so I look at phone today, apparently-she thought texting would be a good idea since she can't talk on it, we don't have texting on our plan and between yesterday and today she and her friend have text over 70 times--I am very angry!!! I also told her she can't be on computer --her and her friend decided to open their own email accounts--which JEri doesn't need--I was upstairs while this was being done and I found out when I tried to log into my account and could not b/c her email address was in the saved spot, SO we had a little chat about the computer and she was not to be on the computer unless I say so , and I need to know where she is going--well that was 2 weeks ago--I ran a history on the computer and see that she has been on everyday and I had to ground her from the computer, this seems to be never ending, that child does what she wants when she wasn't to do it, and I can't seem to keep up on everything.I am going to invest in some nanny software! I am tired! I have to keep this house clean so we can show it to prospective buyers, which is no small feat, I have to make meals, go to work, and keep up on everything and kids have nothing to do except come up with plans to decieve their parents--this is not fair!
So anyway--once again I feel overwhelmed and I don't know if this keeps up I may have tojust start saving money --so I can pay rent somewhere--so we can start showing teh house vacant b/c it is way to hard to clean everything when I have 6-9 kids running around all of the time.